I would like to get married, but I don't even have a boyfriend. Some of my friends have married, leaving me feeling left behind. I think the last time I had a crush was as a high school student. I wasn't able to tell him my feelings because I lacked the courage. I haven't fallen in love since then. I really hope to meet someone that I like and who likes me back. Whenever I see couples downtown, I feel so jealous. Why can't I have a boyfriend? Everyone else seems to have one. I would like to be loved and I would like to love someone. How and where do people meet and start relationships? I just can't understand. I feel a fear of being left on the shelf.
Perhaps you can take comfort in music. The thoughts you express are universal. Every language has songs that say exactly what you have said. I will suggest to you a French song. Not knowing French should be no obstacle because nowadays technology makes it possible to understand the words in any language: "Tous les garçons e les filles" by Francoise Hardy. Her words are exactly the same as yours.